Too nervous to test

So I know most of us have been here, too nervous to test. Im 4 days late, but after ttc for nearly 2 years, I don't want to see another negative. It's been 8 years since i was pregnant, so it's not fresh in my mind on how I felt then. Maybe I'll get up the nerve to pee on a stick soon lol. My Doc told me to at 32 days and call if no AF by 34 days. I think I'll wait till I'm 35days out....