I really don't know how to feel about everything latley. There's times where I'm really happy and all I can think about it my baby growing up and then there's times where I feel this dark cloud surround me. I really don't know if it's the hormones but man it's getting really bad. I'm a full time student ( 1 year left for my b.s in psychology) and I feel that I haven't applied myself fully to school. My concentrating levels have gone down tremendously. Even when we're talking about child development in class my baby is the first thing I start to think about. My boyfriend is the bread winner currently all he does is work and brings in waaaayyy more than I do. I only work weekends right now because of school during the week and it's bothering me because I feel that me as a mother to be am not providing what I should be. Which is frustrating as well because my education is for my baby. There's this saying my mama tells me all the time " learn to earn more but work less, your education is the only thing no one will ever be able to rip away from you". I just hate the fact that before I got pregnant I worked two jobs and went to school full time and now I feel like I cant handle a FUCKING thing!! I have no idea what's going on with me but my tolerance level of being able to take in any bullshit has gone down to the extremes! I feel like I'm always on defense and I can call bullshit from anyone a mile away. I'm always mad and very fragile and I just don't understand why...