wishing things were different

Hi ladies so my baby should be arriving sometime soon already begun to nest. And all this preparation has got me feeling very depressed. Wishing I was not doing this alone again. I promised my self the next man I have a baby with will be a man that will never leave me and he will be my husband. But again was not meant to be. Cleaning my room and found letters from my husband promising he will always be there no matter what and I will never be alone again. Guess he forgot he made those promises . 😢 well i also keep seeing pictures and articles about having your partner during delivery all over social media all I want is that support from him and having that moment with him but again I won't be experiencing that with my third child and it kills me inside. This child is special it's my first time going full term. I mean I'm very excited to be meeting my lil girl even if I am alone in this Just wishing i was experiencing this with my partner who he mutually decided to have a baby with me. But I have not herd from him. 😔