bad birth keeping me up

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My little one wasn't breathing at birth, I ended Up with an emergency csection after 5 hours of pushing. After 15 days in the NICU my LO is home and doing well but they recommended lots of follow up appointments to make sure she's doing well. So far we are very lucky. However I feel like something was missed at birth, I think this could have been avoided but the nurse and doctor didn't pay attention as they should. Anyone else have a similar experience? What did u do? I can't seek legal help as my spouse works for the hospital. It keeps me up at night and I replay the day over and over.