Back On WIC

We moved across the country for this job. Been here less than two years and he's already had some benefits cut. He's looking for a new job which would mean another move, but the search is slow. Interviews, hiring taking forever...

So I called the WIC office today. I have to keep food in my son's belly and at 30 weeks pregnant facing the possibility of being jobless around the time the baby comes...We will lose insurance, pay, everything. I know we already qualify for WIC even with his job. We live frugally. I mean my father in law spent nearly a hundred dollars for 4 pairs of pants for our son that were expensive name brand. They didn't fit so I exchanged them for 3 bags of clothes and a pair of shoes he needed. I don't need expensive things. Off brand does just fine. I don't get on assistance just because we could've been all this time. We made enough to provide well for our family and thought it was a great time to have another baby. 

But it's killing me to know we are gonna have to rely on assistance for a little while. Formula is expensive especially if you find yourself without work. And maybe it's the hormones or the fact that this town is so small, but I hate that we work so hard to provide and it isn't gonna be enough. 

As soon as we are able, we will get off the program. But I feel so defeated that to add to the hurt and fear of moving to a stranger place far from family to lose the job because of cutbacks, I have to tell my husband I think we are gonna need help to food in our kids belly. 

UPDATE: I have plans to attempt breastfeeding again. At least pump everything I can get. But with our first born, I barely produced 2 oz a day, and he was starving. I literally gave him all I had until I dried up. But the doctors had me supplement with formula because he lost so much weight from not eating enough. My husband and I are concerned to be in the same place, we planned to breastfeed and it wasn't enough. But we realize that history may repeat and we may be unable to exclusively breastfeed. I was so hurt bc I couldn't give what our son needed and we had to use WIC to cover formula with him because I didn't provide what he needed. As soon as we could, we got off assistance.  

I will say my husband has so much more faith than I do. He knows it's gonna be okay because he's determined as a husband and daddy, his family won't go hungry. He's scrubbed toilets to put food on the table when that was all we could get. We've worked 3-5 jobs between us.  And he's already said, he will work to find work until he can get back in his chosen field if this job falls through. He has a masters, and we did his schooling debt free by working our butts off. We don't like handouts especially when there are people so much worse off than us. 

I appreciate the support. I just feel like in an instant we went from being a hard working family, paying the bills, expecting a new baby, and now, I'm afraid every day he has meetings. Is this gonna be the last day? But I'm not gonna be so prideful that my boys don't get the food they need to be healthy.