I'm jealous.

I get so freaking jealous when I see pregnant women. I'm currently watching Domo and Crissy on YouTube and I'm so jealous. I want to be pregnant. I want to decorate a baby room. I want to prepare for the hospital trip. I want to take baby bump photos. I want to be excited. I want to feel the baby kick. I want to shop for the baby. I want to have a baby shower. I want to be a MOM. I'm so tried of trying and getting let down. So tired of seeing these girls get pregnant so easy I'm tried of getting my hopes up and being let down. Like I just want to be a mommy.😪