Ball of Nerves...C'mon Rainbow Baby🌈!

Got a negative test one week ago, then a faint positive 3/1. Super nervous because just had 3rd miscarriage late January. Have had occasional morning sickness and tender breasts, but have been spotting for about 2 weeks now..mostly when I have any type of straining (gas, BM, etc). Spotting has been a range of colors, but mostly brown. I'm just hoping I can finally give my husband his first child and my big her first sibling. And that I can quit Googling every single day and chill out til my appt 3/14. Anyone else in this boat?