horny to the bone

Hello!
I'm a new Adventist, but I use to have sex, and who doesn't loved sex? I made it with my ex which I loved! But with my religion I have to wait till I get married, can't masturbate (that's the reason I got rid of my vibrator, which I miss cause it's more easy than using a finger) I don't have a shower! I'm so horny, I don't know why! And I'm taking pills for anxiety!
Wish I could make love! Some days are tougher, some days I'm not horny. I just had my period. 
Uff 😰😭😭