BFN confirmed

Got my BFN today. My doctor called with the negative results. I am on CD36 7 days late. I had very light spotting the last week of February for 5 days. Unfortunately no explanation for that. She basically said to wait until I get my period and if in 10days I don't get it she will re test and if negative she will prescribe medication to make my period come. I am devastated, sad, and mad at the fact that I have to TRY to get pregnant. Something so beautiful shouldn't have to be this hard. The day before yesterday my coworker announced she's 20 weeks pregnant and honestly all I wanted to do was crawl in a ball and disappear.