creeping back into my mind

♡ 𝓚𝓪𝓽𝓻𝓲𝓷𝓪 𝓵𝓸𝓾𝓲𝓼𝓮 ♡
I keep myself purposely busy to take my mind of my current situation but once my baby is asleep and I'm done cleaning or even if I'm eating. Basically anything that doesn't require much so my mind wonders...
I start to think about how bad my situation is.
I get upset still about the fact that my husband ended up being this abusive manipulative man. Now because of his actions, we will never be a family and he won't see his son. 
It's frustrating how he ended up being this monster when I saw the other side Of him when we started dating and saw potential. 
What else can I do to take my mind off it ?