Am I preggo?

No I'm not asking about my symptoms or anything, I know how annoying that is. Just laying here at 4DPO wondering if there's a little bunch of cells about to implant and snuggle up in my uterus. Pretty much constantly think about what would be happening in there if I'm pregnant. I wish TTC was as easy as you think it is when you are young. So scared to get pregnant as a teenager but literally have no idea of the effort it actually takes most people. 2 1/2 years TTC in my younger 20s has definitely humbled me. Every month I pray for something different. Just wanted to share my thoughts and feelings right now. Babydust👶🏼🍼✨