Here's me taking tests pretty much everyday to then see a very faint line to then it disappearing, probably because it's way too early anyway. To seeing a girl I know give birth today she got pregnant at 17, doesn't have her own home, none of them has a job, however I know she'll be a brilliant mum. I'm not shaming her whatsoever. I'm just ranting because I have everything I could possibly want right now apart from a baby. I've had two miscarriages and I'm so desperate to create a family and it's just not working. I could scream and cry constantly because literally everyone around me is either pregnant or just had a baby. I felt my friends baby girl kick yesterday, and broke down crying. I want that so bad. I'm fed up of hearing don't think about it it'll happen, well sometimes it just doesn't happen. It's so frustrating.