confessions

Confessions whether or not you're with someone and you're interested or even talking to someone else. Married or just in a relationship I wanna hear current stories cause I have a Horrible one so somebody make me feel better !!! Please ☹️
Here we go, 
Weeeelllll... my current bf is a total dick but I've been with him for over three years so I knew what I was getting into. We have a baby boy together and he's sweet sometimes (like when I give him really good head and cook breakfast really good in the morning only is then he nice to me) he knew once I had the baby I would have to stop working cause our parents can't help us looking out for him and he told me he didn't want anyone to watch his son anyways, which is fine we agreed with that. But, the problem currently is his really good friend our neighbor and his co-worker has this Huge crush on me and once he came home saying how his friend told him he wants to "fuck me so badly" my mind started to wander.. I thought hmmm "so he really must like me"... well here it is now I'm messaging him off Facebook and deleting the messages so my boyfriend doesn't know. Oh but there's a twist you couldn't believe: HE WANTS ME TO GO OUT AND FIND GUYS TO FUCK!!! Because it turns him on to have me come back home knowing I was just with someone else. He just doesn't wanna know names or faces. Know where this is going ?? Yeah.. I haven't done it yet cause I find it weird as fuck but now after three years, i dont know! I just might but I would NEVER tell him I fucked his friend. Every time he comes over to our house my boyfriend loves showing me off to him by having my wear cheeky panties and just a shirt around our house. He always looks at me with bedroom eyes and I can't really hold back much longer. Please help me girls what should I do ???