maybe it's just me but 😔

I do not feel "excited or happy". I planned this pregnancy and I want this baby, but I feel so down and just plan unhappy. then I feel bad that I'm not bouncing with joy cause I really am thankful that I didn't try to hard to get pregnant we were successful on the 2nd try but I just have no feelings of happiness. I did like the first 2 weeks and I'm in week 8 now and I know it's probably hormones but I see all these elated posts and I'm just sitting here like 😕. Physically I constantly feel bad just emotionally I feel so empty and I feel bad for my SO cause I know I've been so pissy but I can't help it. I just want to know if it's only me.