I'm super conflicted.

I just don't know what to do. I am 20 and married, and I really want to be a mommy and my husband wants to be a daddy. We have been TTC for a while now with no luck. But I can't decide if I want to go back to college or not. I have 1 semester down and want to just get my generals done and have my associates. But I hated college. I had to take a leave of absence last year because of all the deaths in my family and stress and stuff. I work a little job that really isn't even lart time. I get about 45 hours every 2 weeks and only lays $7.25 an hour, but it's money. My husband I may have to move next year if my mother in law's moves back. I just can't decide on wether or not to go back to school. I am really really stupid and almost failed all of my classes my second semester because I just couldn't keep up in classes and they were the easier classes.... I also now live a 30 minutes away from the college. I use to live only about 5-10 and still had a hard time making it classes on time. I just don't know. 😞😭