I need someone to talk to. I'm tired of people tell me you'll find better it's ok just move on.(obviously about a breakup) Ik it's a highschool relationship and people say those never last and it's just one less person till you find the one. But I just need someone to listen to me and so I can prove to them it's not just a stupid highschool relationship. That there is truly a meaning to behind why we broke up. He has liked me since my first semester my sophomore year. He had biology class with me that first semester and he would always stare or me and in the hallways I would catch him looking at me. Looking back at it now he would always try to hint me to be his "friend". He gave me a tbh my sophomore year and said I seemed cool, shy but he thought I would be a cool friend. Before I dated this one guy my friends asked him and said "we should set you up with Kayla " his response was "Meeks?" And my friends said "yes" and he just smiled and walked away. People told me that he was a jerk and rude so I tried to forget about him and I dated someone else. That relationship didn't work out. A little while later my friend was hanging out with him and he asked them if I was still dating that one guy and they said no. And they said he smiled and said o. A few weeks later we had semiformal and he had a date but I didn't. When a slow song came on he danced with his date and I sat down. He kept looking at me when he was dancing. And at that moment I thought to myself that if he were to come over and ask me to dance o would say yes. After the dance was over (a week later) I put out a tbh and he liked it and I gave him one. We talked hat whole night. He told me that he thought I looked gorgeous at semiformal and that he wanted to dance with me and that he was going to ask me but his date wouldn't let him. We talked for a whole moth before he asked me out. He always said that he is sooo happy he has me and that he's glad to be mine. He spent over $100 on me in only a month of dating. He was the one who said kissing after dating a month was to soon. He always talked about getting cute matching shirts and bracelets. He always told me he loved me and at random time tell me (in text) that he just wants to give me tons of kisses just because he loves me. One day came and he just told me he couldn't anymore and that it's his senior year and he wanted to spend time with his friends before they left. And that he was becoming distant from his family and dad who I not in the best of health. And that he being on his phone texting me was keeping him from doing all of that. When he was breaking up with me he kept saying "I think" and he would say "I think right now" "I can't do it" and "I think it's best". I knew he loved me he made one of his passwords the date we got together, me as his Screensaver, and instead of just my name in his contacts it said "my everything ❤". He said he hates to do his and doesn't want to and that he's going to miss doing stuff with me. He said he still wanted to be my friend and we can still hangout. Of course the past week has been hard and I couldn't talk to him without wanting to cry so I didn't and now I am trying to get it together and I'm thinking. Out of sight out of mind, I don't want this so of course I'm going to try my hardest to be his friend and fight the urge to want to kiss him or cuddle him. But I try to talk to people about this and they all say just forget about him you'll find better if he loved you he wouldn't have left you. Of course he loved me I hear stories all the time that people need time for their families and stuff like that, so that's what happens to couples. All those things people say about finding "the one", from how you feel when you hold hands, the way you look at each other, your first kiss. Ik the feeling I had with him and I can't stand being told I'll find better. Who know maybe I will but maybe I won't. There was noting wrong with our relationship but lack of communication which is in a lot of people's relationships. I have never felt this way about anyone I have ever talked to or even dated. I just wanted to share this with you all here on glow cause you all give great advice and I just needed to get this off my chest. If there is anyone out there who would like to talk to me about this I would gladly talkabout it. Or have some advice to help me cope and get through the feeling.or how to keep a good friendship with him it would help a lot.
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