feeling like an awful mom

Kara
My son is almost a month old and I am done breastfeeding. It has been so difficult for me. He wouldn't latch without a shield and sometimes even then wanted nothing to do with my boobs. So I have been pumping. I was pumping every 2-3 hours and not making much milk so I had no o supplement. It seemed like no matter how much milk I gave him he wasn't full. With formula I can give him half of what I was pumping and he's happy and full. I was in so
Much pain pumping and I had the right shields and was doing it the right way but it just wasn't working. I'm so sad. I feel like breastfeeding was supposed to be natural and amazing and I didn't have that experience. I feel so awful for stopping. I feel like I'm not in pain anymore and in such a better mood for my baby though. Anyone else have a bad experience? I was also getting clogged ducts like crazy. I just feel so guilty.