do I owe him an explanation?

I was dating a complete psycho for two years and finally built up enough courage to run away. However I keep thinking of him everyday. He keeps reaching out to my family via social media trying to find me and shockingly enough I actually feel bad or feel I owe him an explanation. I seriously feel like a dumbass. I moved away and changed my number he doesn't know where I am or if I'm even alive. He informed my family he is going to put a missing persons report out on me if he can't find me. It's taking everything in me not to text him from a fake number saying it's ok im alive. I know he's going to want to talk to me but I actually feel bad for just leaving although he tried to kill me and was 100% abusive towards me verbally and emotionally. I feel sick and twisted even having the thought to contact him ughhhh helppp me please ladies! 😩🤦🏽‍♀️