Losing My miracle Babies 😭

Not sure where to even start? Was finally blessed with a miracle baby i never thought i'd have. To find out there was originally 2 of them and one just didn't make it. just to go to the ER two days in a row with the same pain to end up having a misscarriage in the waiting room while the triage nurse called in the people sniffling in the seats beside me. 8 weeks pregnant and Both of my babies were now taken from me. i feel so lost and confused and depressed. i saw my beautiful baby's heartbeat their little body and space in my body. i feel the love grow in my heart felt my soul and spirit engulfe them. and now i feel so lost so broken. what do i do now? i want my miracle back i did everything right i swear i did. i was cautious and safe and healthy. 😭 i don't know what happened. i wish i could rewind and tell them 2 days ago what was going on and fix it. this is so painful 😭