Last month, I met someone on Tinder. A guy who was travelling Asia. After a night of chatting, we decided to meet up. It was a nice dinner date here in Brunei. And that was the first time I wish that time would stop or else, we'll never meet again. That was the first meeting and supposedly the last because he went to Malaysia after a few days.

'We just met' but I had this wonderful feeling. I wanted to see him again. But I won't have another chance if I will not make an effort. So I flew from Brunei to Malaysia to meet him again. We had a great time together. And some things happened. The next day, it was my flight back to Brunei and his flight to Philippines. I was crying the whole time at the airport and when I came back to Brunei because that will be the last time I could see him. That's when I realized that he made a difference in me. He was a very nice guy who captured my heart as soon as he can. I liked him. He likes me too.

We kept talking through chat and video call when he was there in the Philippines for a two week holiday. It was so quick that I fell in love with him. That someone whom I just met. I've never ever felt as fast as like this before. I missed him. So, I flew all the way from Brunei to Philippines just to meet him again. When it was parting time, I was really sad. He told me that we'll try to work it out as he never experienced a LDR. I went back to Brunei, few more days, he went to Japan.

After his holiday in Japan, he went back to his country (on the other side of the globe). I let him settle in his new place first but waiting for him to talk to me... He talked to me. He said sorry because he lived on the other side of the world with 16 hours time difference. he told me that he liked me but not in love because we just met and barely know each other and said he saw that girl whom he had a history. He told me that when they met, it resparked and he wanted to explore some sort of relationship with her.

It broke my heart because I love him! But I have to respect his decision. He added that, who knows what will happen that if we get to winter next year and we think we could work on some sort of level then we could step it up and explore stuff. If it's meant to be it'll happen.

I really like him. He asked me to stop telling him that I love him, I think he was not comfortable of knowing that so I promised him that I will just keep it to myself.

I don't know why I fell in love with him so quickly. But I'm really broken and crying whenever I miss him. I still send him messages and videos and keep updating him about what I do because I'm afraid that he'll forget about me. I want to show him that I'm willing to wait and I'm sincere.

Have you experiences falling in love with someone you just met?

What should I do?

I want him and I don't want him to forget about me. I want him to miss me and realize that it will work out between us.