so upset.
Feeling very upset tonight and need to vent..
So my mom always volunteers to watch my LO so that SO and I can have a date night.. or she'll tell me, to go and she'll watch LO. She also declines being paid.. I'm a stay at home/first time mom and rarely go out.. I'm with my baby 24/7 and I'm sleep deprived/tired almost always.
I told her over a month ago that there was a movie coming out that SO and I wanted to see and if she could watch my LO she of course said yes and that there was no problem.
I asked again as the day got closer she agreed.
That day was today. We left LO with her and went to watch the movie. Just the movie, no dinner, nothing. Movie and then straight home.
Well when we got back to get LO.
My mom started saying things to me like...
Don't you feel guilty for leaving him for so long?
Don't you feel bad that you were out having fun while he's here? He kept saying "mama" and his mama was no where to be found..
You guys still think it's just you two?
It's not you know..you have a baby now..
She made me feel like the worse mom..
It's not like I leave him with her every day..
She volunteers to watch him and when she does she complains about watching him..
Now I feel bad for even leaving him and leaving him with her and don't want to leave him with her anymore..
I was in a great mood coming home from watching the movie and from having a little "date night" with my SO.. as soon as I got there and she said all those things I feel so upset.. and sad..
I didn't let her see that I was upset..just kinda got LO and left after a bit.
I feel like if I would've given her money or if she would've accepted being paid she wouldn't have said those things.. or more like she would've felt like she couldn't say those things because she was being paid..
It's like I can't enjoy a night out because that means I'm the worse mom.. 😭
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