I'm so depressed pls comment positive stuff or encouraging .. ya girl needs it

Okay ladies please don't judge me ... my mom passed away when I was 12 and she was on drugs for a while before ... she was a good women tho . Now I'm being perfectly raised by my grandparents that I love so much . I have a horrible problem . I really NEED attention and any kind that I can get makes me feel really happy, not all kind of attention but if someone is complementing me telling me what I wanna hear gosh that's just a weak spot fr .  I've had sex with a few guys and I regret it so much 😩. I hate my life bc my mom fucked it up and didn't raise my completely right for a while in my life . I feel so different from anyone els like everyone is better than me . I shouldn't beat myself up but gosh . I'm a good person I feel . I'm graduating high school soon trying to go to college I've always had a job & I just bought my first car (2011 Chevy cruise ) the sex part in my life just really makes me feel like a horrible slut