37+1. My husband and I have a great relationship, but lately my trust issues (from my past) have just come in full force. I question everything he does. I feel bad and I know my husband adores me but at the same time, I feel like he is pulling away. Not as affectionate. I know it's me too. I don't feel sexy, I feel huge and gross. I hardly leave the house bc I don't work right now and I'm going stir crazy. I just always doubt my own mind and then the "what ifs" start. What if he is cheating on me? What if he doesn't find me attractive? All of that crap. Ugh. I hate my own mind sometimes. My own mind is my worst enemy.