HATED having a vagina

So after two months of worrying me sick, my period came (wasn't worrying about pregnancy, just health). Which was HILARIOUS, because of all the days it could have come, my stupid uterus chose yesterday, my birthday. I woke up because of the painful-to-hell cramps. I tried to put my menstrual cup in, and I've never had a problem with it, but yesterday the mOTHERFUCKER DIDNT WANT TO OPEN. I was warm and nauseous and in pain and feeling disgusting cuz I was wearing a pad and I could smell myself. And i just hated sooooo bad having a vagina yesterday.