Venting.. Disappointed

A lot things about this pregnancy have not been what I'd pictured or imagined for myself. I've dealt with the disappointments and obstacles as best as possible so make things easy for my family.

Now there were two things I really wanted for myself during the pregnancy since it'll be my only one.

1 - 3D/4D ultrasound which I got a great deal on two sessions and already had the first session

2 - maternity photo shoot

It's breaking my heart that I won't get my pictures. I got the dress I wanted and everything... Was supposed to have the photos this weekend and I'm sick.

Next weekend is the baby shower at my mother the weekend after that is the baby shower at my MIL... Yes two parties but I won't go into that mess.

The following weekend we have the second 3D ultrasound appointment and have to finish packing and moving... I work during the week end of April finish unpacking and setting up the nursery. I'm due at the end of May so maybe I'll be able to do it the first weekend of May but with the complications I've been having I may go into labor early.

I'm totally heart broken and I don't know how to keep it to myself. I don't want my boyfriend to feel bad cause he'll insist... Problem is things don't get done if I'm not around to push. I really wanted this pictures and now with things being left to the last minute by the boyfriend I can't see myself spending the money on the photos and we don't have the place to take photos ourself.... Trust me his place is super old and needs work. I'm ready for this baby to get here but we're so short on time... I'm beyond stressed out I told him we had move earlier and that we could pay the fee to break the lease he refused and now we have to leave this place and have no place to go... I may end up back at my parents... Beyond stressed out and I can't even enjoy having the pictures I wanted.

End rant