so heartbroken 💔

Had my baby this morning at 1:45am. I had a high fever and so did she. They took her to an NICU at a different hospital hours after she was born. I only got to hold her shortly because they took her for IV and antibiotics. I'm so sad. Everything was so worth it and in a matter of hours and falling in love with my little babe I can't even see her for a while. I know some people have it worse but it still hurts. She has an infection and they don't know if it'll be two days, a week or how long because they don't know what it is. I'm so sad. I cried so much watching the transport team take her, I was holding her about to feed her when they came in. 😟 I'm so sore but completely forgot about everything when I was looking at her, now I'm stuck in this bed trying to get discharged Wednesday so I can go see my baby. I wanna cry.