Being A Stressed Out Mum 😦

Hey I'm having one of THOSE days.... I have to start off with the fact that I was cooking chicken in one pan and the risotto rice in another.. at the same time because hubby said he would help.. yet he stayed in our room the whole time... then our daughter (3 months ) started crying so I yelled "hey bub, can you please get her?" And he said "BUSY!!'. I was stressing out, so left the stove and ran off to attend to her... then ran back and she started crying again for a bottle... no clean bottles but of course it's my job to do all the house work... He's never cleaned a bottle, or gotten up to her in the night not once... he's changed.. like 4 nappies (honestly)... anyways he came out when dinner was done and took it into his bedroom (she's still crying) so I of course gave her her bottle... is this what being a mum is? We do it all? I'm not saying he does nothing... but he works 4 days a week. And I tell him all the time I appreciate it so much, he's providing for our family after all.... but sometimes I just can't do this anymore. Yes I talk to professionals, no they don't help. Sometimes at night I'm feeding her, and he'll turn over and say " What is wrong with her, Jesus..."and I get he's trying to sleep... but sometimes I need a break... just once...I wish he would get up, make her a bottle and put her back to sleep... and his mum is always offering to baby sit but she let's bub sleep on her side and the mattress in the bassinet at hers in just folded blankets and not safe... I say, "you have to swaddle her and sleep her on her back" and she tells me "no she doesn't like her back, or being swaddled. Don't worry, I used a pillow for all my children and they are all fine"... it makes me so mad... because he says just drop her at mums... and I say she doesn't listen to what she has to do to keep baby safe and he starts getting mad because he thinks I'm talking bad about his family! I'm sitting here crying... I wanted to be a mum... but it's so different to what I thought...anyone else in the same boat? Job is to clean, cook, wash, fold and put away clothes, mop and vacuum floors, shop and get up to, feed and take of baby almost 24/7... 😯 I really had to get that all out... now she's finished her bottle and I have to burp her before I can eat begin to eat dinner.... (PIC below is to make you smile if you're having a hard time like me... that's my baby princess Eva Mae.. love her to bits)