Premature on purpose

So my doctor told me told that my baby boy will most likely be born premature through c section, as my placenta is blocking the way An that would explain for all the bleeding.. I'm pretty upset by a lot of things about this.. he will be early.. c section.. epidural.. I didn't want the epidural at all.. what if something is wrong with him his brain hasn't fully developed, they have a higher risk of sids I was told.. I won't have my water break.. I won't have the rush to the hospital like normal birth.. I won't have any part of normal birth I will have my baby torn from me while I'm exptreamly Panicked I do not want the needle I have horrible anxiety an now I feel like my pregnancy is already over.. they said I have to have a c section early because if my water breaks an I go into labour I could bleed out. Has anyone else had this..?