Financially stressed and need positivity

Maggie • 25🌞Mommy to💙Luca 12/31/13💙 Logan 02/14/17💙
extremely long story short: we have a 3 year old and a 6 week old. My boyfriend lost his job (our big income) , of 6 years, two weeks ago. I make $6.00 less an hour than he did and I returned to work when my son was 3 weeks after being on bedrest since the beginning of my third trimester. He is filing for unemployment but his phone interview isn't until later this week and he applied for other jobs. Since I just returned to work, I have to wait a grace period to begin overtime. So, I picked up a second job for 15-20 hours a week and then will be doing 10 hours of overtime weekly at my full time job. Obviously I will do what I need to do to get us through this, but I'm having such a hard time because it will mean I have to switch to formula because pumping and breastfeeding is time consuming and for me personally, it will become too much with waking up every 2 hours and having some 14 hour work days. But also, my mom made me feel really guilty for doing this. I NEED to make sure we don't lose our home, car, afford food etc. I technically make too much for any form of assistance except WIC which will help with formula 🙏 She made me feel terrible for being gone from my babies for 60+ hours a week. But I tried to explain to her, wouldn't it be worse if I sat her and did nothing and we got evicted, my car repossessed, etc.? My boyfriend has applied to a lot of places but she doesn't understand hiring processes don't happen instantly just because you submitted a resume... I'm having a lot of Mom-guilt but also worrying I won't be able to handle the long days. Please give me some encouragement that this is temporary, things will get better... I am doing the right thing... right? 😔