The feeling of knowing...

Delsie • Momma to Jagger ( 3 ) & finally expecting baby #2 OUR rainbow - April 20th,2016!! After 3 loses I'm so nervous! :/
The worst feeling is knowing another month will go by and you will just read/see "not pregnant" another period , another reminder my baby died 2 months ago. Having a hard time dealing today and I'm on cd 27 of a 33 day cycle and the doubt is kicking in, the cramps are coming and so is the reminder , Why can't ttc just be easy, physically and emotionally :(