So sorry this is long winded. I just really have no one to talk to about this. I don't want to tell DH till I'm 100% for fear getting him all excited, only to let him down if it's not true. I have friends that are on my side, rooting for us to get pregnant. It's been a long roller coaster year. Sometimes I'm good, positive and feeling like when the time is right it will happen. And sometimes I'm completely opposite, hurt, aching and depressed. I literally have 5 friends all pregnant right now. And I AM so happy for them, however can't help but feel slightly envious. I went to the doctor and found out I have some thyroid issues, in turn making my prolactin super high. I was put on medicines to correct this problem and told to return. The return in 3 months time with labs. We are approaching the end of 3 months. And even though DH and I were only able to baby dance 1x in fertile window, I was atill really hoping this would be our time OF COURSE. I have heard it all, just relax and it will happen right. Well this month we were both super relaxed and just had sex when we wanted to, without any pressure. Each month my cycle varies by a few days, and unfortunate in the last few day of fertile window DH had to leave for a work trip. We still prayed that our 1x may have worked?? It's so hard not to be down about it. Anyway, i couldn't help but start testing once I got to 7dpo, i know it's early but I thought I saw a faint line, and so did everyone else on here. I even emailed the company!! Where the guy who wrote back basically said, a line is a line, doesn't matter how light it is. Okay so fast forward I test everyday hoping the line gets darker. Given that I wasn't able to test with GM the tests still aren't getting darker. So this afternoon I decided to go to the store and get another brand. And blank. What the f^€£ I mean is it possible that this other brand just looks like that?? They all showed up within the timeframe. I am so torn. Today I'm 9dpo but so discouraged and not even wanting to test anymore till my expected period date next week. Ugh, this whole process is SO hard. Should I just continue on as if I am not pregnant?? To be honest my friends are having a party this weekend and I may have a drink. Is that a mistake? Should I tell my hubby?? He is amazing and wonderful, I just really don't want to get anyone's hopes up till I KNOW. Anyone have this happen to them? Any advice or words o encouragement? Sorry so long! 💖🙏🌈✨