PP Healing

How is everyone healing post partum? I'm reading about people getting back to their sex lives like 4 wks out and here I am still afraid to wipe myself. I only had a first degree tear but honestly things feel worse down there at 4 almost 5 weeks than they did at 2 weeks... it still burns when I pee and now I'm having a lot of pain when having a BM...like either hemmorid or fissure which wasn't an issue right after delivery. I have my 6 wk looksy with the MW next week and I'm dreading it. I feel like she stitched me too tight...I can't imagine getting more than a finger in there let alone what she needs to for an exam or my husband!