Ewww....lol

Well after finding out im pregnant (#3) yet again (after 5mc 2with d&c) my Dr has put me on progesterone pessaries...there fine when it goes in...but then the morning comes and then discharge happens haha at 1st I freaked out and then I remembered from a ivf cycle that it has to come out somehow haha And as long as it's not red in any form im happy as i know brown is old blood. But even still im terrified to go to the toilet incase it turns red or even when I have "that feeling" i always go check just in case. I am trying to relax and take it as it comes but trying for so long (since Dec 13) it's hard to feel excited to even to look at baby stuff or think of what the future holds.