i need advice

so a few nights ago, me and my bf were on facetime and we were just talking and fooling around. and like he showed me his dick and i showed him my tits and ass and eventually he asked to see my play with myself. and i wasn't all that into it from the beginning, but i felt like i was being a bad or stupid girlfriend if i didn't show him what he was asking for. so i showed him and one thing led to another and i fingered myself on facetime for him. and then i ended up crying the entire time silently so he wouldn't hear. i hated it but i kept doing it so he would be happy. and afterwards i started bleeding and it hurt really bad. it's not like i was on my period and it stopped bleeding by the morning. i was so embarrassed about it and i didn't know what to do and i realized that it was my fault for what had happened because he was perfect about it and asked me multiple times if i was okay with it and i said yes every time and lied so i wouldn't feel guilty about not doing what he was asking for. and even though none of it was his fault i still felt violated and i don't really feel comfortable doing or talking about anything sexual with him. i talked to him about what happened and he feels really bad about it and sorta blamed himself and i clarified that it was my fault. but im just really shaken up about it and whenever i think about it i get sick to my stomach. i just don't know what to do. do you guys have any suggestions?