pcos 4yrs ttc I'm at my lowest 😞

So we've been ttc for 4 years and I'll I've ever seen were negative according to doctor I have bad pcos, husband slow/low sperm motility, we've been on clomid, fertility blend, trigger shot, iui... got our results back for our stuff and once again nothing worked... I'm crying and feel so depressed I just don't understand this crap! I don't even feel like a woman and I don't even feel like I deserve to be a wife cuz all I ever wanted was to be a mother...  this has been such a rollercoaster. I know I shouldn't cry cuz I should be used to all the negatives so what's another I just really had faith it would work this time. God bless all of you that are strong and able to conceive. And never take ur children or being pregnant for granite. I just needed to vent. And I think it's time that I just stop, doctor says I won't be able to conceive with out iui or ivf but I just can't anymore I'm just depressed and it's to much I just want to sleep. Prayer and baby dust for all u ladies.