I'm Torn

Becca
I'm pretty mixed on this subject. I was adopted at age seven and I have lived with the peoplekl  who adopted me since 1993 (I was born in 1992). I consider my parents my real parents, whereas my birth mom is referred to as the woman who abandoned me. She lost her parental rights the second I was born. She doesn't deserve to know what happened to me! 
My parents told me a few days ago that she came to visit me in the hospital. 😮😱😡 Are you sure she hadn't been taking one last hit of her bong, or drowning in a bottle of Budweiser  BEFORE that? Why didn't they tell this shit to me when I was goyounger?? This woman seriously fucked up her life as well as my life;