waiting for it to be my turn

I had my first IUI a couple months ago and it did not work.  So I tried it a second time but I had a cyst on my ovary and go ahead a couple more months and I went to do it again and I have eggs on my right side but not on my left side and it is suspected that my right tube is blocked . I was under the impression that since my tube was blocked that I had to go there every other month but my doctor said to keep coming every month so maybe that's my problem I'm just really hoping that May is going to be my time and I can get that big fat positive that I have been wanting so badly for the past four years. Not gonna lie I cried and I doubted myself and I was thinking maybe I'm just not meant to be a mom but I know that I can't give up and hopefully in May it will be my time