For valentines this year I reminded I hinted and I plain out asked my SO to make it special for us because I'm pregnant (I thought it was super romantic or something) and I didn't want to be soppy if he forgot it! SHORT STORY he came home from work with a slab of beer from the supermarket and said he forgot flowers?? I secretly cried for half an hour in the shower that night.

Fast forward to my 21st birthday late in march.. I said again to him please make it special I'm turning 21 and I'm pregnant I can't do much of anything Yano. A few days before hand he mentioned he had planned a dinner for us. My birthday comes around and it turned out my mother had  actually planned a really small surprise dinner for us all and a lovely cake! It had absolutely nothing to do with my SO. The only person to actually put in effort and get me a gift was my mother. All my SO did was turn up for the free dinner!!

I cried everyday for like a week because I felt so unloved.

I'm the type of person to take birthdays and holidays seriously and make the people I love feel special. It's coming into May now and our baby is due in a few weeks, our anniversary is coming up and it's my SO birthday. I've been thinking about how I'm gonna surprise him on his birthday and do all these nice things for him and then my thinking strays to how he never cared enough to make any day special for me so why should I acknowledge his birthday. Im still really really hurt by his lack of effort!!

should I do what's right and make his day special or should I blow it off and not give a shit the same as he did??