I don't know if I am the only one who does this, or if this feeling is normal because I'm a first time mom and I am 38 weeks today and I have an appointment soon for my doctor to do the regular check up as always but she mentioned checking my cervix too. Now I haven't been checked in 3 weeks and that's fine with me as it gets my hopes up. Today I feel like if I am not dilated or effaced one bit I will feel like a failure. Like my body isn't doing what it's supposed to do around this time. This is the worst part of the app. You hear these stories of women that are further along than you, due when you are, or due after you and yet everyone is in different spots. Some are dilated and ready and others aren't. I want to have my son on time. Not a week or 2 after. I know I can't control it at all, he will come when he's ready. It's also hard when everyone around me is asking when will I have him or they make jokes about me going into labor at work because I am so active and I can squat and walk and bend and do everything I did pre pregnancy without issue. I am feeling like everyone is waiting and rushing me. I know this isn't a healthy feeling. Does anyone else suffer with this issue? Please no rude comments as I am already not comfortable talking about this which is why I am on anon.