I was 35 he was 19

So I posted a sexy tbt last Thursday and I had 3 of my exs hit me up to say hello. They all know the pic is from years ago. Anyways. I only have an interest in the now 22 year old. And I'll be 37 next month. Don't gave kids DONT look my age at all. I'm in a new relationship now for over a year but I'm feeling bored and want to see this dude that used to have me get butterflies inside when he'd come see me. He told me today that he hasn't had a relationship since us. Hard to believe but I don't even care. My now live in bf works nights and has keys so I can't have company. But I do Want to see my ex dude. I know everyone will say not to meet up. Or w.e else about the age gap and I'm taken but I just want to see him even if it's just one last time. We were fine for months and one day at the super market I made a dumb remark about money and when we got back to my place with all the groceries he told me he wasn't staying over and walked out and I never saw him again. Smh so that's why I feel this urge to see him so bad. He says he regrets leaving me that night. But I didn't deserve for it to be a permanent break up. But I also just realized he still does what he used to do before. Not text me back right away and not have time to see me when I can. Rant over. Can't wait to see him 😜 UPDATE!! We met up last night and went for a walk. Sat and talked about random stuff then it was midnight and we both left home. Separately 🤓 maybe I'll see him tonight again. All we did was hug