I finally broke down.

I finally broke down yesterday and cried so hard it shook my body and I gave into it. Just turned 36 and have been TTC for 1.5 years now. I've been so strong and positive until now. We went to see a fertility specialist and we're both perfectly healthy ...so why?! I don't know what else to do and I just gave into the hurt. I lost my first dog this past Thanksgiving and I'm still taking it pretty hard. When I had her, I felt like a mother. I just want something to care for, I want something that's us that we created.

I could use the support b/c my heart at this point aches so much. Have you felt this way or gotten to this point? How do you cope?

Please comment with positive notes, I don't need to hear that I'm a cry baby b/c you would know if you've reached this point that it takes every ounce of you NOT to reach this point.