I've never felt so empty 🥀💔

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I suffered my first miscarriage, and hopefully my last, just 2 days ago. I have a daughter and her amazing personality just shines! I just stare and her and think, how would of this baby's personality have shined. night time is the worse for me because my mind goes crazy with the thoughts of how in january i would have had my 2nd child. Instead I lay here, empty.. of course i know I have my daughter but this baby was.. is, also my daughter/son. I thought i wanted to try again right away but now I am beyond terrified of this happening again. My heart wouldn't be able to take it.. Does this feeling ever get any easier? I feel so broken 🥀