I'm super depressed

People have very strong views but I'm honestly depressed and i have no outlet. A little over a week ago I found out I was pregnant. I was so scared, because I'm not independent yet and neither is my bf, who I've been with for 6+ years. We decided now isn't the time so I terminated the pregnancy and I've been depressed ever since we made the decision. Knowing that I had a life growing inside of me that needed me, that solely depended on me made me feel so significant. I felt so purposeful and amazed at how attached I could feel to it already. But I also knew that I didn't want struggle, and I wanted my future child to have more than what I could provide for it now. It's been really hard and I could just use anything. Words of advice, encouragement, etc. I feel like I betrayed my own body.