I feel it.....everyday I'm getting closer to meeting her. I'm so scared 😳 I don't want to disappoint her! Ever! Being a single parent will be so hard. How do I tell her that her daddy didn't want her. How do I say that everything will be okay when I honestly have no idea if it will be. I can see it now. She's graduating kindergarten. I'm crying and thinking that he has no idea what he's missing out on🤧. God gives his hardest battles to his strongest warriors. God never gives us more than we can handle. He's trying to teach me something I know he is. Responsibility, struggle, faith, love, hope, family. It's so important yet so meaningless to her father. I don't know struggle like most. All I know is that one day when it's "that time" and she looks at me with the upmost purity and says "mommy who is my daddy?". I'm going to look at her and say " baby he is lost, he can't find his way to us." In her mind I hope she just thinks he is literally lost, but in my mind it means he never grasped the concept of empathy, compassion, responsibility or fatherhood (basic human skills). Missing out on so much is his loss. In the end I'm glad I will have her all to myself. Rant over thanks for reading