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I'm so done as far as all of this. Thought for sure this was my month. Cramps quite frequently, sore boobs, everything you can think of. AF due Wednesday. Little both showed today. My DH is. Very busy man. Works full time IT for local hospital, plus he teaches classes at a few semi-local colleges (two are over an hour and a half away). So AfF shows and I'm so down. I text him and say maybe we should just not do this anymore. It's giving me a shit ton of stress. Isn't babymaking supsed to interesting and exciting?  I used to...  and we are seriously just not going on 4 months TTC. I congratulate all the beautiful women out there who try for years. It doesn't help either that I just found out I'm epileptic and can't drive. Also I have to quit my job because it was causing me to have seizures. So now I'm home. Alone. All day and today it will be all night as well. Guess I just needed to vent. DH doesn't want to stop trying. He's going to a clinic to make sure he can still have children. Btw, he's 43 and I'm 42. There's 5 kids between us. 21, 21, 18, 17 and 7. But are ours between us. I'm just sad. :(