I'm so f*cking scared

Marija
Cancer is taking her away....She is going to operation today,tomorow or in a couple of days...she has metastasys,and needs to remove the one on her frontal bone...If doctors left it it could get her eye in danger,and if they remove it it could got worse..Jet,they 'll remove it..She lef today in a nother country,6hours away from me,by car...My brother and aunt went with her...I could't since I cannot get of my college for days...First time in couple of years I saw her crying..And she was like...Honey take care,listen to your father...And I saw her crying infront of him too,she has never done that before,and they hugged,daddy cryed to..What crybaby family are we?
May God be with her,I need a miracle..Don't take her awaY,I'm only 21,and she is only 54,
I'm not ready,not yet.