Anti depressants

Madelynn
I have a few questions about anti depressants..
I'm struggling with depression, and have been for a while now.
I'm at a point where it's ruining my quality of life, but I'm scared to go on medication
I'm worried it will make me worse off in the long run. I don't want to end up a spaced out zombie. 
Being on medication, does it make you completely numb to feeling any kind of emotions?
I'm really unsure weather or not to use medication. But it's making a huge impact on my life, my marriage and the constant anxiety and stress will affect me with my pregnancy.
What do I do 😰