Emotionally torn

Im 37 weeks and 4 days with my. 3rd girl ages 10 1 and this one will be due june 15 my first is from a pervious relationship im 28 yrs old to get to the point im in a very vulnerable situation where i suffer from bipolar anxiety depression and with that come self esteem issue i feel like im a burden on my last to father because of my bipolar my mood shifts from cold to hot everyday but uts mainly because of what ive been through with ppl in my life so with that being said i always hear him say he is tired he is done it even goes as far as him calling his family to tell them about it i feel like were grown our problems are ours no one else i dont care how old u are because i never once ran to my family to tell them anything he always says hurtful things to me when he is really upset he has called me ugly ragedy that im nothing that he doesn't love that he deserves better and that everyone thinks so too it hurts and truth is im tired as well because im the type were things ppl say stick to me point is i gained courage to get me and my 10 yr old out of a mental physical and verbally abusive relationship with her dad to be with someone i thought cared for me only to feel unloved again i know that love doesnt make u hurt like that and that or feel unloved i told him my deepest darkest secrets. My dreams my fears i feel in love with the kindess the words and feelings i never felt before i met him at a vulnerable time in my life and now i feel betrayed like my vulnerability was tooken advantage of