Happy excited but gutted at the same time

Lulu • Truely blessed with 2 little miracles :)😌💙💖

After 4 miscarriages i found out that im pregnant again :) over the moon especially when my doc dated me as 8weeks furthest ive managed to get aswel (except for my 1st pregnancy) so decided to treat myself and book a private dating scan. Turns out im only measuring 4-5weeks so didnt get to see baby and too early to listen to heartbeat im soo gutted i didnt get to see bubba and now really paranoid about things going wrong i know i should stay positive but its so hard after recurrent miscarriages :(

Dont want to be sounding ungratful at the same time as i am so so happy and lucky to be pregnant :)