help.

I'm not really sure why I'm even writing this because I know it's not going to change the way I feel. Or the pain I'm in. Or my situation. I guess I just need words of encouragement. A couple days ago my boyfriend and I ended our five year relationship and I am beyond myself. It's so hard to breath. I've been crying non stop everyday. He was the one person who really kept me sane and I'm losing it all. This pain is so intense and I don't have a clue how to cope with this. I really don't know how. I'm not saying I'm suicidal but I wouldn't care if I got hurt or killed. Im just so far gone right now. And I don't know what to do. He's my best friend and was my lover and I feel like this huge part of me has been completely stripped away. Ugh.